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"The Road to Perdition"
YOU cannot stop me. YOU cannot liberate me. YOU imprison me. YOU remind me. YOU somehow define me. YOU unwind me. YOU leave me in the desert and do not return to find me. YOU try to lift up. YOU try to make it up. YOU are this intense memory. YOU are back in the day, May 1, 2004, agelika films, peanut butter and Supersize me, YOU are there in the corridors, hiding and aching to watch over me. YOU can never know, because you are not me. YOU are long gone now, somewhere out there now, I am no longer the burden....I am no longer in your ear wispering to complain....you are free now, you're alive now, I'm the shell you left behind now, im the fearful now, im the child shaking in the corner, curled up and scared to die now, If I could scream out loud until my throat bled, i would now, there's silence where there was once sound now...............is it a memory, or voices, or some weird dream i woke up from.......was it ever real? do I exist? is there a point to this?............. these are the things that consume the nights of our lives...these are the things that consume, one's will to survive...............this is what it looks like, lift ur head back, look up, the nothing is waiting.
"If I were to end..."
"Down Below"
down below i feel....the wisp of the wind and fire and the ice...
down below i feel....like nothing in my grip could ever suffice...
down below i feel....the cold cool blade of ur laboring steel....
down below i feel.....like an empty space without a home....
down below i feel....like ending it now, like ending it now...
down below i feel....this will never begin, its just touching the end...
down below i feel...as if i could never be free from the love and the sin...
down below i hide....alone and afraid and ready to die...
down below i hide...sleeping never to wake, in this fucked up state...
down below i hide....am i ready to walk, or am i ready to fight?
down below inside....you can touch, fuck, haste, waste me, taste me, its just so cold and bitter inside....
down below I've tried....to make it stop, burn the fire rolls high...
down down til the very end...im a lover, a fighter, a winner, a friend, never touched by angels but stirring in my sin, let the needle fall down, watch the tree tops just bend, angst and agony is the same, im inside you, im in him, im the wind and the water, im the air that we breathe, im the mighty soldier dying, your the angel on his sleave....we're both waiting and watching, both ready to die, we're back to back in the field of rye, who what where how...why?....why is the this the record to be played, over and over, you have set the stage, im lost in translation, one glance, one look and i fade....into the distance...into the ocean...takes 2 and 1/2 steps back, feel the movement of my motion....this is it, this is the end, the doors have closed black, no turning or looking over my shoulder, the battles of my mind crumble, there is only silence now....i could wonder on and on, why or how? but there is no point, this is it, and this.....is now.
